Monday, September 22, 2008

Over a year has came and went.....where did the time go......


Here it is, Sept 22, 2008 its a monday night and I'm still not sure of anything. I really am trying to make some changes in my life, but its so hard for a person like me. I get use to the way things are and have a hard time getting out of old routines. I am a mercy bleeder, I feel peoples pain whether it be physical or mental. I know what best for me, just don't want to hurt someones feeling getting there. I don't want to grow hard and cruel, I just want people to want me to be happy too. hmmmmmm. So I sit and I think and I wonder what to do....over and over again..

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Epiphyllium Oxypetalum

Two years ago my boyfriend gave me a start to a plant that he had received from his brother in South Carolina. All I knew about it was , you could start it from a piece of leaf, and bloomed only at night and only lasted through the night. The fragrance was suppose to be heavenly. Well being the plant lover that I am, I was very intrigued by this piece of leaf I was getting. I potted the leaf, watered the leaf and it grew and grew and grew. Not the most attractive plant I have ever grown, but interesting to the say least. Wanting to learn more about my plant, I turned to the internet to investigate websites to name my unknown plant. To make a long search short, I found a name for my gem. Epiphyllium Oxypetalum. Also know as Night blooming Cereus, Queen of the night, Christ in a cradle ect ect.."Epi" to all us Epi owners I read everything I could find on her, and waited with anticipation for my "Epi" to bloom. In some forums I read some people had their plants for 20 years without ever experiencing a bloom. I kept her in a south facing window in the winter, and put her outside in the summer. Imagine my surprise, when towards the end of June, sitting outside on my deck, where I kept her. I glanced at her leaves and saw 5! not 1, 5 bloom buds! I jumped up and scream in delight of knowing I would be experiencing blooms on my "Epi" soon! I watched everyday, as the bloom buds started to grow. After checking on her progress daily, I soon discovered on bloom bud had fallen off, I also noticed the bud in the back was growing at great speed and the others were not. Well you know what happened, they all fell off, but the one in the back and it was growing like crazy. 2 inches a day at least. So I was about to observe my first epi bloom and couldn't wait for the night it would happen. July 23 a monday, I came home from work and rushed out to see my bloom head. OMG it had swelled and what showing white at the tip! Tonight would be the night of my first "Epi" bloom! I couldn't contain myself, I called Sam and told him to pack his bag and come watch the spectacular showing, but, he declined knowing he had to work the next day. bummer...Wish I could have shared with someone who could understand what a thrill this was for me. Well I set up my camera on a tripod, put a spot light on the house so I would have some light on her, and opened a beer and sat down to watch the show. A little soft music in the background and I was set for the evening, and what an evening it was. I sat from 7:45pm till midnight and enjoyed the changing beauty and the wonderful fragrance which filled the air all around me. I filmed and I ohhh and awwwed for hours. I am adding the slide show,view....Click on link below and tell me what you think....
http://s144.photobucket.com/albums/r200/sug4646/sams%20epi/?action=view&current=SamsEpiBlooms.flv

Well its August


Its been a while since I have vented, so I thought I would add a little to my venting blog..haha. Yep, I talk to myself, and answer myself too...geesh, never mind what I just said. Well, My babies are in Iraq and I am so afraid for them. I know they are growing up and seeking whats good for them, but I just can't let go. They will always be my babies no matter what. Here is the last picture of me and my boys together...

Monday, April 23, 2007

I'm Depressed


I like writing on this blog because no one reads it. Sometimes you just need to vent and let out all your feeling. Sometimes I think it help me cope with everyday life. I have a no where job and it depresses me everyday. No on appreciates anything I do. the pay is nothing, no benefits. In reality the job morally is not the best. I feel like I am stealing from people who don't understand the game. They think they are getting something for nothing and in the end, get ripped off. It tears my heart out to watch people like me, who don't have a pot to piss in, throw away what little money they have on worthless junk. I guess I shouldn't take it personally, but I do. I know what its like to have nothing, and try and try to get ahead, and get deeper in the hole. I know. Its what my whole life has been about and no one seems to get a crap, no one. I always heard the old saying. "Nice guys finish last" Nice people finish last. You have to be a bullshitter to get ahead in this life, if you are honest, you get no where, no where. But....I have always heard you get rewarded in the end.....what end, when you are dead and gone? I have not always been perfect in my life, but I have alway tried to be a decent, honest human being. Sometimes you wonder if its all worth it. What goes around, comes around, but do you have to pay for it for the rest of your life? Hell is what you go through on earth......hmmmm...I don't feel any better writing this

Thursday, December 07, 2006

BAHAMA MAMA

BAHAMA MAMA!
Current mood: excited
Category: Life

I'm headed to Freeport Bahama's!
I can hardly believe it! Leaving Jan 6, returning Jan 13th...I can't wait to see the beautiful clear blue waters, the palm tree's, feel the tropical breezes,see the birds and flowers, I'm sure the pictures will be amazing. I'm even gonna try snorkling! Geez, I'm so excited I can hardly stand it. All because I have the most wonderful, thoughtful, loving man imaginable..

Friday, December 01, 2006

Merry Christmas

Its December, and lots of things have been changing. My two youngest sons, joined the national guard and are presently in boot camp, at Ft Jackson, SC
Its bitter-sweet, but I believe they need this to grow and learn what life has to offer. This picture was taken 2 days before they left. Nov 5. My daughter Lensey, my oldest son Doug, Me, Eli and Chance. They will be flying back home for Christmas on the 18th of Dec. We will all be together for Christmas this year! They will then return to finish basic training and graduate in Jan. After Graduation they will go to Virginia for 3 months to train in food services. I sure miss them and there antics. haha. Well That's all the news from the Rose....

Sunday, August 27, 2006

Reasons

Monday, July 10, 2006

Green Eyed Angel of Mine


Green Eyed Angel of Mine
Living yet my Dreams
Walking with your Head Held High
Among life's Foolish Ways
So Very sure of your chosen path
So searching deep into the sky's
You still remain with laughter
Music deep within your being
In your taste, in your movement, in
love with life's freedoms.

Disappointments just make you more of who I should have been
Strong and determined, never wavering from the instilled
Love, to save and savor, when the right person walks your way.
Will he have blue eyes, a big wide smile,
A caring touch, open and tender heart.
He will have my Green Eyed Angel forever more.
hold your beautiful head up high and always believe,
It will be there for you soon.
Just never change your love for good times and good friends.
Great lasting love is sure to come your way Forever.
Looking at what life should have been for me.., Through you...

Green Eyed Angel of Mine.