I'm Depressed

I like writing on this blog because no one reads it. Sometimes you just need to vent and let out all your feeling. Sometimes I think it help me cope with everyday life. I have a no where job and it depresses me everyday. No on appreciates anything I do. the pay is nothing, no benefits. In reality the job morally is not the best. I feel like I am stealing from people who don't understand the game. They think they are getting something for nothing and in the end, get ripped off. It tears my heart out to watch people like me, who don't have a pot to piss in, throw away what little money they have on worthless junk. I guess I shouldn't take it personally, but I do. I know what its like to have nothing, and try and try to get ahead, and get deeper in the hole. I know. Its what my whole life has been about and no one seems to get a crap, no one. I always heard the old saying. "Nice guys finish last" Nice people finish last. You have to be a bullshitter to get ahead in this life, if you are honest, you get no where, no where. But....I have always heard you get rewarded in the end.....what end, when you are dead and gone? I have not always been perfect in my life, but I have alway tried to be a decent, honest human being. Sometimes you wonder if its all worth it. What goes around, comes around, but do you have to pay for it for the rest of your life? Hell is what you go through on earth......hmmmm...I don't feel any better writing this